Just Kidding

Ok, well just so you know.. I didn't go move my stuff out. We were all ready to, we had the boxes in the car and were ready to go, but ironically my mother texted me and asked me what I was doing today. I responded with, well actually Spring and I are coming over to pack my stuff up. She then said she wanted to talk to me, I told her that I didn't want to talk about it anymore, and then she said that if I am planning on getting married we needed to talk. She then actually called me and told me that she didn't want anyone coming over to the house; that she hadn't gotten over this yet. I told her well we are just coming over to pack my stuff and she won't say anything to you if you don't want her to, she doesn't hold any hard feelings for you. My mom still freaked out and said, "No!" I don't want any of them in my house. I said well it's the same as Mariah coming and helping me... she's my friend. My mom then proceeded to say that she was upset at Mariah's family because they apparently said they would help pay for the wedding and they would be the escorts when my parents didn't agree. (Just so you know, they never said anything about paying for the wedding)... Well I said, well what do you expect me to do then? I am not going to come over alone, I can't pack alone. She told me to ask my sister, and I said that won't work because laura wouldn't want to, and it would take all day. I wanted to get it done and over with, so I wouldn't linger around bothering them. She said that it would be fine if it took all day, and I said, still I don't want to and I'm not going to come alone. She also brought up that she didn't want them in the house while she was there, so I said ok, well we will come over when you're not there...and she flipped.. She said,"I DON'T WANT THEM IN MY HOUSE WHEN I'M NOT THERE EITHER!!!" Well, I said, ok then I'm not going to come over without someone, and when I do come over Jesse will be with me. So we hung up, it didn't go so well, as you can tell...

Then about an hour later, I was checking my email like I do everyday, and there was another letter from my father. I was just ready to die. The subject was "how to work with your mother -dad" I wanted to just scream, I have had enough of this. I just couldn't believe it! So I opened it, curiousity got the best of me, and I decided I should probably hear what they have to say. um.. well I don't think I will post it on here, just because I don't think it's necessary... it wouldn't leave you with a very happy feeling. When I finished reading it, I responded with Dave's help (he just helped me remember my feelings that I have told him, and helped me put them on paper). My letter just expressed that I am through talking about this, I recieved my witness and should not be bothered about it anymore, and many, many other things. I sent it... but I do feel peace with it... yes it scares me because I don't want to hurt my parents feelings and hearts, but they really needed to hear this.

Just so you know: I am still getting married on May 30th! No matter... sigh... thank you all for your support, caring words, and concern. I really appreciate it and needed it all.