Unexplainable Emotions

I don't really know how to explain this, but... sigh... I'm in love. It doesn't even matter how upset or hurt I am, or was. I am unexplainably, irresistably, and twitterpatedly in love. The sun does shine through my life, even if it's just small sun beams sneaking their way into cracks. I think I have cried so much in the past week that tears just don't matter anymore, life just has to get better. Have you ever cried so much that you don't think you will ever cry again in your life? Well I feel like that has happened to me. I am grateful for the words of support from those I care about so much in my life. Even though I have only known them for a little more than 6 months, I feel that I've known them for forever, and with their encouragement I know I will be able to make it through anything. I know I have to change, and I might as well accept it. I have to be happy no matter what, even if the world decides to crumble and fall apart right in front of me; I need to be the one who is strong enough to put the pieces back together and hold them in place. I choose to act and feel a certain way in any situation I'm in. No one has the right to tell me how to feel, or even to tell me how I should act. Only I can take control of that. My heart is getting lighter, and I know I am still loved by the only one I need in life. Someday the last missing piece of my heart will be reunited with me forever, and my life will be heaven on earth and beyond that. It will last for longer than forever.

Life Update: I just got my first real job. It's at a place called Vector, they sell CUTCO knifes. Yes, I am selling knifes, but oh man it has amazing benefits and pay. I have a base pay of $14.50, so no matter if I sell them or not, I still know I'll get paid if I go to the appointments. I also have the opportunity to move up and get promoted to make $60 per appointment, in as little time as 15-16 weeks if I sell 120 orders, and have 10 appointments per week on average. I also have the benefit of being able to plan my schedule how ever I need. I can even take time off for holidays or weekends if necessary. I am amazed at how put together this company is, and I am so grateful to Jesse for telling me about this opportunity.

Let's see... I also have been thinking about my life, and I decided that if I don't get accepted into the Utah College of Dental Hygiene school then I am switching my majors and becoming a photographer. It is a little random I know, but I just love taking pictures. Someday I want to be able to paint the pictures I take and hang them up, or sell them. I want to learn how to paint with oil paints, and become an amazing photographer. Even if I do go into that Dental Hygiene school, I will do photography on the side to take advantage of my life pleasures.

Well I had better get to bed because I have a Microbiology lab, Institute, and my 6 hour job training. By the way, my butt is so sore from sitting on the metal chairs for 6 straight hours. OUCH! Oh well I guess my butt needs that experience to become better in life somehow. :P